I don't usually do my first blog of the week just before my Weight Watcher's meeting. However, I suspect my next blog will not begin with good news this time. I have tried to be really careful, but when you are faced with two pre-supplied lunches for training, two farewell parties and three birthday celebrations in the same week, then chances of actually losing weight are slim, pardon the pun. If I lose anything this week, I will be ecstatic. If I maintain, I will be pleased. If I put on, I will be resigned to it.
In the face of possible disappointment, I'm looking at the reasons I'm doing this in the first place.
It's all about choice.
The ability to choose things in life that a lot of people take for granted.
For example, I'm rather looking forward to going into a clothing shop and choosing not to wear things because I don't like them, instead of being faced with no choice at all because I don't fit into anything.
But the best thing I'm looking forward to is the ability to choose men.
Let me explain.
You see, right now, I don't register on sexual radar. You can see it. I walk into a room and men's heads pop up like meerkats to see who the new person is. And then their eyes dull and they go back to what they were doing.
I'm not registering on sexual radar.
I'll walk into a bar with a slim, blonde friend and see the sexual radar blipping off the chart as they look at her. Then they look at me and the radar shuts down.
Ow.
Once upon a time, I registered on sexual radar. I'm looking forward to doing that again.
The part I'm looking forward to most?
Registering on some sleazy radar and having the guy walk up to me and chat me up.
And turning him down flat because 20kg ago, I wouldn't even have been a blip on his screen.
sometimes circumstances conspire against even our dearest goals. & i have no idea how someone like you could be off anyone's sexual radar.
well, maybe off the sexual radar of a slug. MAYbe. if it's a blind slug.
...know what you mean. L.K. (lkhend)
You'll get there again and you will have fun turning them down. I am 41 and have been on and off and on the sexual radar of men. But it is really me that I have the need to please. After all, I get to see me naked every day.
The other day I walked into a gas station and the guys behind the counter both registered blips. I had to fight the urge to sing nanny-nanny-boo-boo, I'm a married grandmother you fools. Instead, I just ignored them.
Well.. I happen to know how you did on your weigh in tonight...
*wonders if you would thump me for stealing your thunder....*
Fortunately, I came installed with SONAR. Nothing gets by me, baby.
It's fun registering on the radar I get a great thrill out of it.
Remember though it's more about attitude than how your body is built, I could go out right now with a baggy flowery dress no make up and people wouldn't even see me. If I go out in my nomarl all black ensemble a bit tight but not TO revealing, strutting my stuff guys sit up and NOTICE! NEVER EVER EVER underestimate.........ATTITUDE
I learned in high school from a girl who was the ugliest thing I have personally ever seen, seriously she was FUGLY. But she didn't think so and by damn no one else did either.
If loosing weight helps you regain your attitude. YEAH! if it doesn't well my friend work on it.:)
And personally I think your gorgeous not only that your mind is absolutely beautiful and so very sexy.
I would have to disagree there, Zoo, I think attitude has less to do with attraction at first. It tends to be more purely physical.
Attitude... as in.. look AT those TITs dUDE.
You'll do it!
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Try being over 35.
*sigh*