09 January 2006
:: Back on track ::

A 1.7kg (3.7lb) loss in my first week, just by eating sensibly and drinking all my water?

I'll take that.

It MAY have been influenced by the infected tooth which ensured that I was taking little nibbles of food and eating very slowly. But the vomiting definitely didn't play a part because I hadn't eaten at all that day anyway. And despite the anti-nausea tablets not kicking in until around 5.30pm that night, I still managed to eat over my points.

But I'm sorry, going through that and NOT having ice cream with caramel sauce is surely breaking a Geneva convention somewhere. One has to be forgiving to one's self.

Of course, this means that I'm not seriously considering real exercise until after the root canal tomorrow and after any other dental work that is looming on the horizon (I'm expecting to end up with a crown once they've cleaned the tooth out).

I may do a mild yoga work out or two using my copy of this and I'll scour the magnificent Stumptuous for that old dumbbells workout she had. That was an absolute corker and toned me up like nothing else.

The tooth has been a convenient distraction from me thinking about why I eat. However, despite being deeply distressed by pain, the worst I managed was 6 points worth of low fat ice cream and caramel topping.

It's scarcely the packets of corn chips, cookies and chocolate of my heyday. Not that I can manage anything particularly crunchy yet, but you get the picture.

It gives me a quiet sort of hope that I don't have to spiral into binge eating the moment things go pear-shaped.

The fact that I stayed pretty much on track all week and didn't feel particularly physically hungry was great.

I felt emotionally hungry, but it was at that point I could ask myself what the real problem was and nurse that need, rather than just eat.

The most important thing seems to be that I've been able to distinguish the two in my head. Both emotional and physical hunger manifest themselves as a physical sensation for me. Physical hunger is more of a gnawing in my belly, while emotional hunger feels more like a whirlpool spinning around just around my diaphragm. It's a form of anxiety, but it's not a physical need for nutrition.

It's a physical need for comfort and reassurance of another sort. Now, it's easy to pack carrot sticks in your desk to satisfy the physical hunger, but what is the emotional equivalent of carrot sticks?

It's one thing to say that chocolate won't give you a shoulder to cry on, and goodness knows I've said it in the past, but that doesn't mean you have to go cold turkey. I need an emotional nicotine patch.

In the past I have bought chocolate to reassure myself that I was worthy and good and deserving of nice things. Now I need to find a new way of soothing that need. Something quick, effective and doesn't look too freakish if I'm in the office or out in public.

Anyone got any ideas?

Edit: As I edited my weightloss tally on the home page, I realised I had just tipped back over the halfway point. I haven't even thought about my rewards for this round, but I'll hold off celebrating until I see the numbers next week.


ladymisstree | 08:20 PM | Take a bite (8)

firsly - thanks for coming back. You have been such an inspiration for me, i was devastated when you took leave.

I was watching the skinny chicks at school one day and realized three things that they had in common when becoming bored/emotional - chuppa chups - sugary but it is extremely hard to binge whilst sucking - they often take 15 minutes to eat and by then emotional drama is over
bubble gum - can increase your appetite but will tie you over until the next meal
lip gloss - most of the girls substitute lip gloss for lollies - I recomment the new party range including bream puff, candy cane, plum pudding and vanilla creme - yumm - just like dessert but no calories!


Served up by airlie at 09:08 on 10|01|06


Yay for big losses - first week has always been a high point for me.

Heres to keeping up the hard work! :)


Served up by Manda at 12:08 on 10|01|06


It's always hard to find that quick emotional hit. I hate how all the books recommend bubble baths!!!! As if you can hop into a bubble bath in the middle of the work day.


Served up by kathryn at 09:22 on 10|01|06


Oh. I think there is something in Airlies comments.

I like that. Whacking some lip gloss on when Im peckish. ..

Congratulations on 1.6kgs, commiserations on your toothy peg.


Served up by Beckie at 11:11 on 11|01|06


Congratulations!


Served up by LMS at 05:01 on 12|01|06


Loved Airlie's suggestions!

Cheers P


Served up by Paulene at 11:12 on 15|01|06


First of all, nice to see you back and congratulations to your result.

I also have a question, for you or anyone who might know the answer.

You mention a dumbbells workout on Stumptuous page. Does anyone have a link to that specific workout?

Thank in advance.


Served up by Cathy at 09:55 on 17|01|06


Look, I didn't want to harp but....

WHERE ARE YOUUUUUUUU?

*squish*


Served up by Beckie at 05:19 on 30|01|06


Feed me baby










Remember me, baby?