I've joined Joelle & PDTD's Bahama Mama Challenge.
I still need to peel off between 16-20kg (35-44lbs) and my loss rate has been so low that it will take about two years to get there unless I ratchet things up a notch.
It's not anything more than what I need to be doing anyway. Track what I'm eating, get in plenty of exercise and guzzle water. I've been doing that for nearly six months now, I've just not been entirely disciplined about it. This challenge is just a reminder to be a bit stricter about making good choices.
Wow, six months. You'd think I'd have this weight loss thing down to a fine art, wouldn't you? You'd think I'd be little Miss Rabbit Food 2004.
But it doesn't work that way. I still have nights when all I want to do is numb myself with huge quantities of food. The difference between then and now is that I choose not to.
It's something that my WW lecturer really brought home to me week before last. That it's OK if you still get those crazy cravings. That you're not a failure if you don't automatically order steamed fish and vegetables at a restaurant. That there will be days when you won't get out of bed early to walk.
For some insane reason, I had fixated on the idea that I would be a success when all these habits were 'broken'. Until then, I was weak. A failure. That I would never succeed.
Success is not obliterating these things. Success is being aware of them and making good choices as often as you can. Because we are human and if you offer me the choice between cheesecake and lettuce, well, I'm not going to be noble about this.
But I know that if I eat the cheesecake, I need to do x amount of exercise and watch what I eat for a couple of days afterward. And that I can enjoy the cheesecake and not beat myself up for it afterwards. I just need to make different choices after eating it to compensate.
So I'm OK with the flawed thinking that lets me believe that an over-full tummy will make the pain go away. But I'm much happier that I can choose to ignore that thinking and choose something better for myself.
i especially like the part about making the right choice and the cheesecake. very well put. can i quote you? :)
Congratulations on reaching your 15kg goal. Its huge, gInormous....that's about 30 blocks of butter...that's the weight of a 2 year old...a whole darn 2 year old!!
You are amazing and you should be very proud of yourself.
Amen and hallelujah. Not obsessing about every single thing I put in my mouth was one of the reasons I was able to lose the weight I did. So long as you're willing to pay the price, have at it!
Excellent post. Really excellent. :-)
Served up by sarah at 06:57 on 07|08|04