Yes, finally, this site is up and running again. Deepest apologies for the black out, believe me, if there was a way to get back here earlier, I would have done it. I have missed being able to talk to you guys more than you can ever know.
If you're glad to have me back, then tell my boy, because it's all due to him. He's been slaving his fingers to the bone trying to figure out why MT has been giving us grief. But he put his planet-sized brain to the challenge and here I am.
And not before time too.
A couple of you who've spoken to me or emailed me know that things have been very difficult of late.
I've been overwhelmed, not just by work and life in general, but because I've gone into what is called 'processing' in therapy. I'm digging around in my past and trying to cope with what I'm digging up.
Now, before anyone gets super worried, it's just regular childhood trauma I'm digging up, nothing that anyone could go to jail over. But it's my trauma and it's shaped who I am for better or for worse and it's stuff that I thought I had dealt with.
Turns out, not so much.
I'm digging around at the root of my eating habits. And, in order to cope, I've been eating like an insane person.
Ghastly things are being ingested at a rate previously only observed in nature documentaries featuring starving scavengers. Exercise is being woefully neglected.
Right now, it's all I can do to get out of bed some days, let alone eat properly and get some exercise.
Now, I know that the endorphins from exercise will help kick this depression to the curb. My logical brain knows that. But the part of my brain that still thinks that pizza will make the pain go away also thinks that it's too hard to go for a walk.
Today was a good day. Today I did some weights and I walked. Today I ate a good breakfast, lunch and dinner. I also polished off half a box of Valentine's Day chocolates and half a bag of gummies, but that's pretty mild compared to the past week.
I doubled my dose of St John's Wort and liquid vitamin B. I threw in some Evening Primrose Oil because it's the week before my period. That with the exercise, helped me get through today.
Today was a good day.
I'll try for something similar tomorrow. Hopefully that makes tomorrow a good day too.
I missed you while you were gone. I hope you start feeling better and have more good days on a regular basis. I also have a lot of childhood trauma, and it is hard. I know. Sometimes it does help to hear you are not alone.
Good to have you back (again) :o) Thankyou Mr Tree
I agree with dg, you and Beck are both looking HOT!!
Take care & good luck with everything :o)
Hoorah for your boys planet sized brain!! lol
I for one am so pleased to have you back.
Sorry to hear you are doing it tough :(
Just take it one day at a time and don't be too hard on yourself ok?
Thinking of you
cheers P
Paulene is so right ... one day at a time is the only way to get through times like this. Anything else is too overwhelming. Take care you!
yay for Ghost! Glad to have you back
I'm having weird experiences with stuff I've dredged up from my childhood in the past couple weeks. Not sure it's similar but I think I feel for you here.
Maybe I should get a counselor/therapist for a bit....... been considering it. *shrug*
Anyway welcome back
cg
Welcome back! I will repeat what all the rest already said. You have been missed! A lot! I had to read everyone's comments to read some of the tree wisdom I missed actually!
I have been where you are in therapy. I thought I had dealt with stuff that actually kept surfacing. Hang in there, it is so much worthy at the end :)
Many thanks to your boy for enabling you to come back - we missed you too! You and Beck look fab-o! Sending warm supportive thoughts as you work through your therapy. Take care, eh? Hugs
good to have you back :) you are a strong woman and will get through this one step at a time. you are an inspiration! take care
So... let me recap how the encounter ACTUALLY happened.
(Sad Tree'0 Woe is me, how can I ever survive without my blog?
(Me) Get someone to fix it.
(Sad Tree) Woe is me, whoever shall I get to fix my blog.
(Me) I dunno, someone knows whats wrong I'm sure.
(Sad Tree) Sigh, no, no one can help. I'm doomed.
(Walking into the trap Me) Sorry baby, wish I could help.
(Trap Springing Tree) Yes! That's it, you should help!
(Me, who just walked in the trap) Err.. but I don't know how to work that crap.
(Tree) Fix my blog.
(Me) Someone else should do it, I'll probably break it.
(Tree) Fix my blog.
(Me) Really baby, better to get someone else. Someone that knows web crap.
(Tree) Fix my blog.
(Me) Fine! God damn it.
(Happy Tree) Yay!
*10 hours later...*
(Me) There. Its frigging fixed.
(Ecstatic Tree) YAAAY!
Glad to see you back! Writing would help, oh who am I kidding I'm just selfish;-)
How strange - I couldn't see this update till today. Must have been my caching or something!
So glad to have you back, Tree. Have been thinking of you a lot.
Thanks, Ghost :)
It sounds like a good day to me! It is a battle all the way. You gained back a bit of ground today. Keep up the good fight.
v. glad to see you back. I understand about the ignoring of the diet thing. sometimes it is only possible to focus on a certain number of things.
thinking of you, K
I'm so glad you're back. I'm so sorry you're suffering. Sometimes one day at a time is too overwhelming and we have to cut back to one hour at a time. Hang in there...the little I know about you from your blog shows what a strong, caring wonderful person you are. Don't let yourself forget that.
Give me a G "G"
Gimme a 'h' "H"
Gimme an 'o' "O"
Gimme an 's' "S"
Gimme a 't' "t"
What's it spell?
Callipygian!!!!
Haha.
Great to see you back online but even better to see you in the shrinking flesh.
You know what? You are officially a skinny person now.
You looked, spoke, breathed like a skinny person when I saw you. That's that. You are.
Now, I shall get off my bot bot and email you our pictures!
I have a few more trips to Melbourne over the next few weeks. I'll let you know soon when they are.
oh - i really wanted to do a heartfelt welcome back, can't live without you speech, but I'm too busy laughing at Ghost's entry!!! Very funny! and i'm so glad that I am not the only one to use emotional blackmail/my boobs as a weapon to get what i want!
Hey you! Welcome back - even if I'm a bit belated in saying it.
As for falling off the diet/exercise wagon a bit -don't worry about it. It is NOT the end of the world. You'll be back on track before you know it! (If not, we'll make you push the wagon as punishment! ;-)
so glad to see you back, tree! i saw your photo on beck's site, the pair of you were looking HOTT!
sounds like some intense therapy. wishing you all the best with everything!
Served up by dietgirl at 12:31 on 16|02|05