Just when you thought I was done with the bad 80s lyrics...
A gain this week. A measly .1kg (.2lb), but a gain.
There's a reason why I've used this lyric.
I've been here twice before. I've bounced between the same couple of kilos here twice before. I've given up here twice before.
I mentioned a couple of entries ago that I need to be more focused than ever. This gain reminds me that I can't slack off here. I need to remain vigilant.
The gain is not a gigantic surprise. We went to the movies twice this week (popcorn, choc tops and lollies), ate Chinese one night and I spent the afternoon in the pub with an old friend yesterday. And no, I wasn't drinking pints of water.
While I was still within my points mostly, the popcorn probably helped me retain water, as would the alcohol. There were too many little slips this week.
I mostly made good choices, but it's easy at this point to let things slip. To not count that splash of olive oil in the pan, to underestimate the points in that steak, to slap some butter on that potato.
My body feels comfortable here. I think it likes being at this weight. I'm not ready to be comfortable here, though. Sure, I have bought smaller clothes and I need a belt on just about everything else I own or I'll be arrested for public nudity. But I'm a long way from being done.
The first time I got to this weight, I bounced up and down between 80kg and 85kg and then I just gave up because it was all too much like hard work. I had joined WW thinking that I would lose weight without any effort, I would somehow reach goal through fat osmosis or something.
The second time I got around this weight, my then boyfriend had just emigrated to Australia and moved in, I was celebrating my 30th and I was taking a month off work. I got distracted (unsurprisingly), lost sight of my goals and fell back into bad habits. My weight wavered again between 80kg and 85kg before finally shooting into the stratosphere to my highest weight ever.
I won't let that happen again. If I bite it, I'll write it. I'll be more disciplined about my choices. I'm NOT going to bounce between 80kg and 85kg again. I'm going to slowly chip away at this, get over this hill and make a new start as a 70s girl.
Guess I'll have to start researching some new 70s lyrics.