Why yes, I would like a little cheese with that whine. Thanks to Amanda and Kimba for pulling my head out of my arse and showing me the light.
You can't make this all about the numbers. It's doomed to failure.
I know this intellectually. But, in my praise whore of a heart, I want validation from smaller numbers on the scale and the measuring tape.
I need to learn that getting up a flight of stairs without huffing and puffing is equally valid. So is a smaller pair of jeans. So is getting up and walking every day or doing weights or pilates or whatever takes my fancy because I enjoy moving my body more.
Also at the heart of this is a desire to understand how my body works and how it responds to different exercise and eating habits. Right now, I have less idea of what makes my body lose weight than when I began. But I guess if I keep doing what I'm doing, it will keep doing what it's doing.
Despite all of this and despite not losing any inches and despite eating poorly last week, I still dropped .5kg (1.1lbs) this week. Which is confusing but it's a loss and I'll take a loss with a handful of confusion over a gain and understanding any day!
I would love to be able to figure my body out too. Sometimes I think I have, but just when you think I've got it sussed, I realise I haven't at all! I guess that's part of the challenge of all this. And what makes it so much more satisfying when we DO succeed.
You know, I do kinda agree with kdeweb, it's really hard not to be a scale (or tape measure) whore - because watching the numbers drop is a really satisfying validation of our efforts and success.
BUT I have found that if I invest too much emotion into those numbers, they will let me down! So 9 months into this, I'm trying to make it work for me: when the numbers are good, I celebrate, when they aren't, I try to ignore them and look for 'non-number' measures to celebrate.
(Unless of course I've had a whopping gain, and use the reality check to face up to what I've done to achieve it! heh)
This way I can find things to congratulate myself about, instead of focusing on 'negatives', and hence keep my spirits up. You just gotta stick at it and do what works for you :)
You know, my WW leader tells us that many of us have 10 or 12 day bodies, and that we won't necessarily see a loss (or a gain) as a result of all our work when weighing in every week. The only predictable thing about our bodies is that they are unpredictable! Keep it up though, you're doing great, and will see results soon enough.
You know what I do? I don't know what my actual weight is. Each week at Jenny I just weigh in and then she tells me how many lbs I dropped. So far it has worked for me :) I think I know how much I weigh, but it's not important now. Just how much I'm losing is ;)~!
mystie
In our heart of hearts we are all scale whores. The delight I get at seeing that needle move is so much greater. I just keep telling myself to keep doing it and the results will come.
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